My name is Nikki.  After losing my mother and best friend, I realized how the loss of such an important person created a massive change in almost every aspect of my life. I was shocked to realize how much this type of loss can fundamentally change the core of who I was.  This blog started, quite literally, as an attempt to go through it, without totally losing it.

It's my attempt at being vulnerable and doing the thing that helps me work through immense pain, and that's to write it out until it starts to make sense. 

I hope these posts not only help me get through it and bring meaning to navigating one of the toughest times in my life, but also help others along the way.  

This is how we go through it guys.  With each other. 

Love, Nikki